Homeboy

Towards the end of my teenage years, I became deeply infatuated with a boy only a couple of years older. The sordid 'relationship' proved to be both dysfunctional and destructive. At the time, I thought of him as an old soul: radiant and reflective, mysterious and melancholy. Of course, now I look back and think, "The fuck?! The guy was twenty-one." No, really, how profound could he have been? He was probably still popping his pimples while having a farting contest during a wicked game of Mario Kart with the boys.

Anyway, I wrote enough about him to fill a novel in my other blog, so I'm going to move forward to the main subject of this post: Adorable. Adorable was a British indie/pop band in the 90's, part of the Shoegazing genre. Adorable also penned a song--"Homeboy"--that I considered to be the prevailing melody of the 1.5 years with my obsession with this kid. Sure, The Cure played a huge part, along with Tom Petty, Sun Kil Moon and Death Cab for Cutie...but Adorable sang the anthem. And thanks to Youtube and Myspace Music, I have been on an Adorable revival binge for the past two nights. I found the music video for the song, which I never knew existed, and I want to share it with you.



Ok, seriously though. These lyrics! They were like scripture to a dramatic, depressed, 19-year-old female yearning for love from a drugged up, emotionally unavailable fucktard, lol.

I want to drown beneath the waves
I want to dig myself a shallow grave
And hold you up for all to see
I want to cut you up
I want to watch you bleed
Ever so slowly...

You're so beautiful
You're so beautiful

It's been five years since that whole ordeal, and the song is still just as good as it was when I completely related to it. You'd think I'd be a lot wiser now about matters of the heart, wouldn't you? Here's to never again being so foolish about those fleeting and fickle feelings.

Please?